Met my fav Idol!

When i created this post (without any text, yes, i know) im in a good mood. I mean i just got my mojo (writing loves or whatever, ps: mojo is 'supernatural' reference--yes, im watching this series right now) back. Now, i continue this post with bad mood.

The angkot iam riding now, its ngetem (you know what i mean right? Lol) ok, its over, im not in that mood.

Okay, its Feb 7th when i resume my story. Seriously, im so easily distracted lol.

So my fav idol from korean is Super Junior and Seventeen. My bias are Donghae&Eunhyuk from Super Junior and Hoshi&Woozi from Seventeen. When i was in highschool, i was super crazy about Suju. I had a dream to see them in real life, either its concert or whatever event they are coming. This dream was super hard to become real. Even when i was studying at IPB (which relatively near Jakarta if they come to Indonesia), I still couldn't come. Its either because i didnt have the money or i cant because of my study. I was saving at the time, but i felt like i can use my money for better use so i never come. Its my dream but is not my priority. It is the same way as Seventeen.

Although they aren't my priority, i still want to see them, even when i am losing interest at them as i grow up (kpop in general).

And then, the opportunity came. It was trans media birthday and they decided to invite SJ D&E. And because its their birthday, the ticket was free. So i thought, "Wow that is my bias! I have to come, see them once in my life." That time, i already work in Gojek so distance was not problem at all.

I didn't want to come alone, so i invited my friend, Sarah, who work in Jakarta, to come along. She agreed right away (she like SJ too when we were in highschool, although D&E weren't her biases, she willing to come--she said  the biggest reason she was willing to come was to accompany me, and im grateful for that).

(me and my friend at Transmedia Birthday, Dec 15th, 2018)

It decided then! On Dec 15th, we came to BSD City. I forgot the name of the place lol. When we arrived at noon, it was so crazily crowded. For me who dont like crowded place, it was bad lol.

We waited for about five hours till the event was started. There were other artists too on Transmedia Birthday event, mostly indonesian artist.

When we entered the venue it was like a death or life situation lol. The crowd kept pushing at each other. I was standing in front of a fence and the fence was falling because the crowd pressure lol. Im laughing right now, but when i remembered that time, it was pretty shocking. To cut you some slack, it was brutal when we entered the venue. So i wonder, if every concert was like that. The struggle to enter the venue is real.

I forgot what time they performed, but they performed energic-ly, super handsome too. TV seriously didnt give them justice.

(Super Junior D&E at Transmedia Birthday)

I really excited to see them. I mean, one of my dream finally came true! But then i realized that im really matured, i didnt that excited when they were far from me, I just got excited when they were near me.

But overall it was worth it. My energy and time. I enjoyed watching them.

That was it! Lol seriously i just good at complaining but explained something exciting its hard.

See you next adventure,

Bye!

Best regards,

Anis Sri lestari 

Job hunting! 💃

Im in mood to write, so i will use it really well 😊

Okay, i graduated on Sept 19th, officially felt jobless since Sept end (when im done with my journal).

Guys, its really hard finding a job ㅠㅠ there were so many jobs, but its hard to be call for test, its so uncertain. It was like looking at ocean, we cant see the end, there are so many possibilities and uncertainty (okay okay fine, its not really correlation-able, but i dont have foto with job related--okay okay, wrong again, i have but its close up and too private, so a photo with me looking at ocean will do).

(me, looking at ocean)

There are so many jobs online application. But let me tell you, its not always works. Its hardly works for me, maybe because my major its too specific and not your usual major related job (it was applied meteorology), maybe because i dont have many experiences in internship or assistant lecturer, maybe because my organization is not that many, maybe because my volunteer section is not that many, maybe because my skill (its computer related, but my major use tools that  is not commonly used by most of the company). But i dont know what exactly they see when searching for talent. Like i said, its uncertain. Like lottery dont you think? Except i never played lottery (okay wrong again, when i was a primary school student, i played pick the wool, if we're lucky we got something from the end of the wool, if not, yeah, not. You know this game rite? I dont know what kids nowadays plays, but if you're my age you must be know. It was still a lottery, rite? Lol).

See? When i write, im not always focus on one topic, i talk everything that i want lol.

Okay, back to my job hunting experience. On october i began my job hunting, i felt like i am applying everywhere in jobstreet but not once im called. Luckily, on oct there was cpns selection. Cpns is, what we call in english? Government worker? Yeah something like that. So i applied and passed the administration. On 20-something, Oct, i came for test. The test for cpns is called CAT (googling it if you're curious, i forgot what is mean).

The test was so darn hard! It was frustrating for me lol. I passed the twk and tiu, but i failed tkp (googling again okay lol). I wasn't hoping then because i wasnt passing the passing grade (cause i failed tkp). It wasnt just me who failed. My friends were too. We gossiped about the test, saying that it was so hard and so on. Lol i wasnt happy nearly all my friend failed, but i was glad i wasnt the only one who failed lol (am i cruel? No right? Lol)

That was October. The happy news was, on the day that i failed cpns, my friend called me, offered a job, it was to be a freelancer at gojek. Because i was jobless and starting to be hopeless too from then on, i accepted her offer (thank you my friend who offered me a job ㅠㅠ your so kind). So i got a job because of my friend. Till i post this journal im still a freelancer at gojek (soon not to be).

My job consists about researching for business development. It was fun at first and i was so happy i got a job. But later on, it became tiring because; one, i have to go to jakarta everyday from bogor (okay, minus weekend, but i bet you already know that). Two, I feel like my salary not that worth it if im comparing it with the job desk. Hm, maybe iam not thankful enough, dont copy me lol.

So right now iam began my job hunting again, wish me luck! No no, wish all of us luck!

Cheers,

Anis.

Side note: i know my grammar is a mess, dont bully me lol

Side note (again): i just write in English because i want my english better, so im practicing here. Fighting!

Updated! Welcome 2019!

Its funny how time flies.

Its already 2019 and i still have dream to be chasing! You too, right? Flighting for all of us :)))

(sixth on rooftop lounge, cordela norwood hotel, Jkt, Desember 31th, 2018)

I will learn to become a new me. Who more cheerful and thankful. I had many hardship in 2018 and iam thankful i can overcome it.

2018 was both happy and sad for me. I tried many new things, for my taste, for my experience, for my life. Its fun, i ate, i traveled, i laughed.

I finally graduated from university on 19th Sept, 2018. It was one of my happiest moments in 2018. I accomplished one of my dream. The struggle, the challenge, and everything finally worthed 😊😊.

(me, on my graduation day 🎓)

Im so proud of my self, to not give up, to give my everything, to keep going, to accept challenge along the way, to learn something new, to be friends with peoples, to gain new experiences and new knowledge, to become me.

Im so thankful for my parents. For their support, their prayers, everything. You're one of the reason i keep going and never give up. You're one of the reason i dreams so high (and this dreams still high). I will keep going, i will keep dreaming. Until your so proud of me, until you're happy.

To my brother whom i cherish very much, probably my favorite person in this world. I have promises to you and i will keep my promises. Just please be a good person. I want to make you happy.

To my family, im very thankful too.

To my friends, who accompanied me along the way. We struggled together and we finally accomplished one of our dreams. Thank you for your friendship and lets keep this friendship forever 🍀

After graduated, i still have to go to a seminar for my skripsi (?) poster presentation at ICTMAS 2018. It was on 20th, one day after my graduation. Can you imagine the hectic that i felt? ㅋㅋ it was such a chaos lol. I have to go from bogor to bandung (with min 6 hours tour) and i cant accompanied my family for traveling bgr (jkt). Thankfully my family lives relatively near bogor (its cjr, 2 hours without traffic). So they went home after my graduation.

It was fun at seminar, though i barely knew everyone lol. But it was tiring because of the journey and the timing, which is exactly one day after my graduation 😢

After that, i still have to make a journal from my skripsi. So i got back to bogor and began drafting. It was until September end i think, but i still had to revise my journal, so it take me about one month until final draft.

Lives began after that. On oct i was still enjoying my unemployment status, because why not u enjoying it? Lol. It was very relaxing at home. Until your boring and need to look for a job lol.

Its long enough i think. So i will end it here but i will upload an update about job hunting lol (iam a soon to be unemployed again, iam kind of being a freelancer so its short).

Cheers for better year!

Yours,

Anis.